Have you ever felt lost? “Oh sure!” you may say, “I was lost, but now I’m found!”
But what about when you feel lost even as a believer? What about when your marriage is crumbling? Or when your kids have become mini monsters? What about when school doesn’t go as planned, your career changes, you lose your job, you lose your house, or you stop feeling God’s presence? What about that kind of lost?
I’ll be the first to tell you I feel that kind of lost often. I’m twenty-five and single. I have a Bachelor’s degree in English and I live with my mom. I am no where near where I thought I would be when I was twelve years old.
And God’s grace is sufficient through that.
The Joshua passage today is so incredible. I love words, but I don’t think I can articulate the importance of Jericho as well as Pastor Steven can in this sermon (watch 17:47-22:40).
My favorite part is when he says “just because your progress isn’t obvious doesn’t mean your faith isn’t working.” When I saw this sermon I wasn’t working at First Pres. I was interning for free with The Center (God Bless Kelly Corcoran for offering me that position and a beautiful summer spent learning about the Gospel, teen ministry, and how to run a ministry) and thought my life was never going to be more than the rut I was in. I was certain that I had ruined my life (all before the age of twenty-five!).
But I was faithful that God would use me.
Now I’m here. I am honored to serve our teens. It is a blessing that I am able to be the person I needed as a teen. See, my progress was not obvious until August 2017. I thought I was getting nowhere with my degree, my odd jobs, and my personal adult ministry work. The bricks of my Jericho were stationary… but I kept marching.
Have you heard how I got this job? How God orchestrated the entire thing so that I could become part of this family? It’s a rather amazing miracle if I do say so myself.
The Psalm today talks about how our hope is in God alone. My hope is in God. Still, to do this day as I cry out for desires of mine to be filled, I rest in God alone. I am walking by faith–that He is good, that His plan is perfect, and that He knows what I need because He is the bread of life.
Brothers and sisters, do you feel lost today? If so I encourage you to reach out and ask for a friend to walk alongside you as you navigate this fallen world. Sometimes it’s hard for me to look to Jesus–my shame is too great or my pride gets in the way. That’s why I need friends; they point me back to to Truth when I can’t do it on my own.
Yes, sometimes I feel lost; but I am so grateful that I am not alone on this journey. I am grateful for every person who has spoken life into me and those who continue to do it. I am grateful that Jesus calls me Beloved. I am grateful that the Bible is filled with Truths of who I am. I am grateful that Jesus is my guide. I am grateful for a patient God who loves me when I am unloveable, gives me grace when I deserve none, and gives me peace beyond all understanding when I ask. I am grateful for the Passion.
Today is Good Friday. As a dear friend reminded me yesterday: There is no Easter without Good Friday and there is no resurrection without death. May we spend today in remembrance and praise.
Many Blessings, my friends;