A few weeks back I was talking with a friend about bearing our crosses beautifully. Today’s passage, specifically Luke 9:23-24, talks about it.
“Then he said to them all: ‘Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it.”
…must deny themselves. Whoa.
Some of you know a friend of mine recently died. Immediately after the tragedy I decided I was going to bear this beautifully. I put extra effort into my appearance and attempted to work more diligently on projects. I stepped up my leadership game, poured into those grieving, spoke of her on stage where I declared to those in attendance that she lost her battle with depression, her passing did not defile any of her goodness, and even though the devil won this battle Jesus won the war.
I thought I was denying myself.
But in the midst of this busyness I was denying Jesus the opportunity to heal and rescue. I wanted to be in charge of saving myself by working for others. I wanted everyone to think I picked up my cross and denied myself, but truthfully I was just denying my pain.
I am not denying the hurt anymore.
And that’s okay.
While I truthfully pick up this cross I am not alone. I have been blessed by family, friends, and co-workers who are willing to walk along side me while they are carrying their own crosses.
So on this Tuesday afternoon I stand before my beautiful church family with true praise in my heart for a God who loves us enough to give us this family. I stand here and fully deny myself as savior and rejoice in the Lord who is the true Messiah.
May you be loved and known. May you find that community to walk through life with you. May you know that Jesus wants you to follow Him not for His own benefit, but for yours. May you save your life but surrendering it to Him.